Sesat Di Hujung Jalan

     Di dalam posting saya yang bertajuk 'Tingkatan 6 (Bahagian 2)' saya ada menyatakan bahawa cuti sekolah hujung tahun bekenaan merupakan cuti sekolah terakhir saya sebagai pelajar di sekolah swasta tersebut.  Ini kerana tahun berikutnya saya tidak lagi kembali ke sekolah itu sehinggalah sekarang.  Rakan-rakan di kelas Inggeris pun hanya seorang sahaja yang pernah saya jumpa selepas beberapa tahun.  Rupa-rupanya dia telah berkahwin dengan rakan sekelas saya semasa di institusi pengajian tinggi dahulu, adik kepada seseorang yang sangat berpengaruh di negeri Johor.
 
     Sebelum saya ceritakan sebab musabab saya meninggalkan sekolah itu, ingin saya mengimbas kembali satu pengalaman yang tidak penting tetapi amat bermakna kepada saya.

     Segala-galanya bermula apabila saya menerima surat panggilan temuduga di Sekolah Kebangsaan Dato' Palembang, Bukit Baru Melaka dua hari sebelum hari raya Aidil Fitri semasa saya di Tingkatan 6 Rendah.  Saya telah menghadiri temuduga jawatan Kerani Pelajaran tersebut ditemani oleh Romli anak Pak Usu Ali menunggang skuter Vespanya bernombor BAA 1370 (Bayar Ansur-Ansur 13 ringgit 70 sen... gurau sahaja)

     Keesokan harinya saya membawa Kak Long menunggang skuter ayah ke tempat yang sama dan menghadiri temuduga untuk jawatan yang sama.  Selesai temuduga, kami mencari-cari jalan pulang ke Muar namun telah tersesat.  Dari Bukit Baru, kami ke Jalan Bendahara lalu terus ke Bandar Hilir.  Kemudian berpusing ke Jalan Bendahara semula lalu ka Bandar Hilir semula.  Begitulah keadaan kami beberapa kali sehingga akhirnya Kak Long terperasan bahawa Bukit China terletak di sebelah kiri kami.  Sepatutnya kami membelok ke kiri untuk ke Muar.  Moral of the story: Malu berkayuh, perahu hanyut, malu bertanya, sesat jalan.

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Lencana Sekolah Dato' Bentara Luar Batu Pahat

     Awal Januari berikutnya, saya menerima surat tawaran jawatan Kerani Pelajaran mengarahkan saya melaporkan diri di Sekolah Menengah Dato' Bentara Luar dan saya telah menerima tawaran jawatan tersebut.  Masalah saya di Tingkatan 6 telah selesai.  Tetapi beberapa tahun kemudian, saya telah mengambil peperiksaan untuk pelajar-pelajar tingkatan 6: yakni Sijil Tinggi Persekolahan Malaysia.

Akademik Daya, Maktab Adabi Maharani

     Tahniah Hj Hassny kerana memberi terkaan yang tepat tentang nama sekolah swasta tersebut.  Sesungguhnya mereka yang terlibat secara langsung sama ada sebagai staf akademik dan bukan akademik (misalnya En. Bahrain bin Sidek - kerani) atau pun sebagai pelajar (ini yang ramai) tentu masih ingat lagi nama hebat itu kerana kedudukan dan cara pelaksanaan pengurusan yang saya lakarkan agak detail.

     Maktab Adabi Maharani adalah saingan sihat yang terletak di Jalan Khalidi (seperti yang pernah diceritakan oleh Pn. Hjh Mussalmah Musiran yang mana Tn. Hj. Md Nor salah seorang muridnya yang sangat meminati kelas Geografi beliau).  Sekolah Menengah Md Yasin pula (seperti yang ditulis Tn. Hj Hassny) terletak di Batu 1 1/4 Jalan Bakri; lebih kurang 200 meter selepas Sekolah Arab Sa'diah (juga kepunyaan Tn. Hj Mohd Yasin) belok kanan.  Institut Pendita pernah terakam dalam minda saya satu ketika.  Kalau tak silap saya ia juga terletak di Jalan Bakri.  Institut Maharani di Jalan Sulaiman.  Tentang Institu Halaman Cemerlang pula, saya tidak sedar akan kehadirannya.  Mungkin ketika itu saya jarang balik kampung.  Sedang berkhidmat di luar negeri (berkhidmat di Pahang, luar negeri Johor).

Sebahagian daripada Maktab Adabi Maharani

Maktab Adabi Maharani

Sekolah Arab Sa'diah di Batu 1 1/4 Jln Bakri masih ada hingga sekarang.

Sekolah Arab Sa'diah dilihat dari Jalan Hashim.

     Kalau Allah yarham Dato' Abdul Aziz Md Yasin mengiktiraf Muar sebagai 'the site of the intellectuals' saya tidak terkejut.  Mungkin ramai anak Muar tidak sedar bahawa satu ketika dahulu terdapat sebuah Maktab Perguruan di Muar dipanggil 'DTC' (Day Training Centre).  Lokasinya di Tanjung atau Jalan Timbalan.  Barang kali bangunan kayu yang digunakan Sekolah Akademik Daya dulu adalah 'Day Training Centre'?  Saya teringat seorang rakan guru (Cikgu Zainon namanya) semasa saya membuat latihan mengajar di SK Salak Nama, Rembau, Negeri Sembilan menceritakan pengalaman beliau semasa menjadi Guru Pelatih di DTC Muar.

     Hidup BANDAR MAHARANI!

Form Six (Part Two)

     The Private School where I registered as a form six student offered two medium of form six; Malay and English classes.  I decided to enroll in the English class as I had started with English since Standard One.

     Everything went well at first.  I enjoyed the lessons given by young and energetic teachers.  But it didn't shine until evening.  One day, a teacher was absent.  Then another one.  Then, another.  Later, we found out that these younger teachers were university students teaching part-time during their semester break.  They quit from teaching as they had to go back to campus for a new semester, deserting us like stray chickens.  We had to wait for another bunch of teachers to lead us the way to university.

     Time dragged slowly.  We waited for weeks, then months, for new teachers to come, but in vain.  We were left far behind in our lessons by the Malay class.  Eventually, the Headmaster came to see us.  We knew he had come to offer us a solution to our problem.

     "Students, the school is not able to find teachers for the English class.  It's already September.  You are free to make a choice.  If you join the Malay class, we won't charge you any fee until the end of the year.  If you want to choose another school, we can't stop you."  After that statement, the Headmaster left.  We were stunned and quiet for a few seconds, sad and at the same time, angry.

     Reluctantly, I entered the Malay class, worried as I, with a few other students from the English class was left far behind in our lessons, apart from having to familiarise ourselves with malay terms that we would find in our lessons.  Life had to continue.  As a student, I couldn't concentrate on the lessons.  I didn't quite remember the results of my End-of-year examination.  I wanted to get out of that place and my prayers were answered.  Hence, the end-of-year school holidays was the last school holiday for me at the school as I did not come back the next year.  How would my Sijil Tinggi Persekolahan examination be?

My School Days (Part Three: Last Part)

     (This third and last part of "I Still Remember"that appeared on SMK Tengku Mahkota's school magazine saw me putting pen to paper about a small problem that soon developed into a big crisis.  However, every cloud has a silver lining.  What did I do to solve the problem.  Just enjoy reading ...)
    

One night, my father asked me to get ready.  “I’m going to send you to Mak Ngah Besah’s house.  Her daughter, Ros will help you in Arithmetics.”  I quickly got ready an exercise book and some writing materials.  Out we went, in the dark cool night, to Mak Ngah Besah’s house not far from our home.

Kak Ros was a nice lady. She tried hard to make me understand the lessons but in vain.  The strange new environment, my shyness and my inhibitance prevented me from gaining any new knowledge during the first part of my tuition periods.  However, I did not make a lot of progress.  I still couldn’t remember how to solve problem questions, although I had started to get interested in shapes.  Although I read aloud repeatedly every day, it was still very hard to remember the multiplication tables.

Kak Ros (left) who gave me personal tuition on Arithmetics.  This picture was taken this year (2011)

Those were the problems I faced in my attempt to learn Arithmetics and Mathematics while in primary school.  When I enrolled in High School Muar for my secondary education, my problems did not seem to disappear.  I still failed my monthly tests and exams.  To make the matter worse, another subject accompanied Mathematics.  Now, there were two very difficult subjects to learn; Mathematics and Science.  The problem continued until I was in form three.

Mr Chiam Tah Meng, my Form Three Mathematics teacher at High School Muar

Every day and night, my parents prayed to God so that I could be relieved of my problems.  Probably their prayers were answered because suddenly I had a nice surprise.  All of a sudden, I passed the February test in form three.  This reward made me feel very happy.  I valued the change so much that the answer sheet found its way into my wallet and stayed there for a few months until it became so soiled. The transformation boosted up my courage.  I needed to be well versed in the subject that I had begun to like.  Looking around for help, somebody told me that there was a tuition class held at Lorong Serkam once a week.  My spirit rose, I registered for the class to get some guidance.  The lessons seemed to be easy this time.  The tutor’s explanation was crystal clear.  I could understand almost every topic taught.  Bursting with enthusiasm, I tried to do every exercise I could find based on the topics that I had learnt.  At school, when Mr Chiam Tah Meng gave me some exercises, I did every one enthusiastically.  I made a correction to every mistake.  In addition,  I did a lot of other sums that he did not give in the text book, then compared my answers with those in the answer key at the back page.  I did the sums again and again whenever I got wrong answers, until I arrived at the correct answer. 

After that, mathematics seemed to become easier and easier until I was rewarded with credit five for it in the Lower Certificate of Education.   (Lower Certificate of Education was the exam that students in form three had to pass so that they could continue their studies in form four.  If not, they had to ‘retain’, that is they had to study in form three again and sit for the same examination at the end of that year.  Worse came  to worst, they had to enroll in a private school and study in form three again before sitting for LCE at the end of the year.)

            Looking back, now I realize that not all things that looked difficult initially, is indeed difficult.  It may seem so at first, but as we grow more matured, our intelligence do help us a lot.  As a friend says, “Things are difficult to you if you do not know them, but once you do, everything is easy.”

My School Days (Part Two)

     (The article below is the second excerpt of "I Still Remember"that appeared on SMK Tengku Mahkota's school magazine.  I regret that Part Two appears first before Part One.  Enjoy reading maa...)

     Part One of 'My School Days' was my first experience attending school in Standard One.  In the second part of the article, I related about the first problem that I encountered as a Standard One fearful school boy at Primary Ismail School Two. Muar in the sixties.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         

            That was the first day of school.  During that time, there were no nurseries or ‘Tadika’ or ‘Taski’ or Tadika Perpaduan’; therefore, we only started learning alphabets and numbers in Standard One.  One interesting thing was, we learned everything in English except Bahasa Malaysia (at that time it was called ‘National Language’), totally contrast to what my brother and sister did at the Malay school.  We learnt to say “Please teacher may I go out?” and so on.

            At school, everything went well until I started to get a wrong answer for my arithmetic sums.  Disappointed to see a cross made by the teacher on the page, I slashed the wrong answer with my pencil, again and again, making a black patch on it. 

After that, things seemed to go wrong with mathematics.  I found it difficult to understand the lessons taught.  The teacher seemed to go very fast with their lessons but timidity got the better of me; I did not have the courage to ask any questions.  I squirmed every time the Math teacher came.  I hated every homework given by him, felt very relieved whenever he was absent, hoped he would be absent again the next day.  And then, when I saw that he came the next day, I felt so disappointed I could have killed myself.

There was one day when Mr Gurnam Singh, the Headmaster himself came to our class.  He instructed all of us to stand up and recite the multiplication table.  The whole class recited in chorus.  Slowly he moved towards me and stopped in front of me.  Being a small boy, my eye level was only at his huge stomach.  I dared not look up as I was nervous.  My palms started to be clammy, my limbs were numb, cool sweat trickled down my spine.  Why he didn’t he walk off?  Why did he stop in front of me?  And stood right there?  A string of questions raced in my mind.  I had to relieve myself of my sufferings.  I had to see why he stood in front of me for ages.  Slowly I looked up at his face.  Wah! Blood drained away from my face.  My heart beat very fastHe was looking down at me!  Frowning!  He looked serious!  He was looking at my lips, to see whether I was reciting the correct table.  I stammered.  I couldn’t remember whether I was reciting the correct table or not.  My mind was blank.  Then he walked away.  I heaved a sigh of relief.  My God!  What an experience.

Could this be the Mr Gurnam Singh that I was telling the readers?  I'm not sure (he looks so young) as I found this picture on the internet.  Besides, it seems to me that all singhs look alike.  Sorry about that.  To Mr Singh, if you happen to read this article, I have always respected you and still do.

The problem changed from bad to worse.  As I could not pass mathematics in every every test, I began to hate the subject.  I envied my friends who always got good grades in every test and exam.  The marks in their report cards were always written in blue while those in mine were stained with red. 

I remember a friend of mine who faced the same problem.  He was so eager to present to his parents a report card where the marks were written beautifully in blue.  On one test, he happened to be absent for Math.  He thought that he would pass all the test without the subject that he hated.  Lo and behold! Suddenly he failed another subject.  How frustrated he was!  To make himself happy, he rubbed off the red mark and changed it with a blue one.  His father didn't find out the fraud, but his class teacher did.  The rest is history.

     How can I make myself pass my tests? I began to lose hope, did not know what to do.  I left it to destiny to decide.         

My School Days (Part One)

     (The article below is an excerpt of an article which I wrote that appeared on SPEKTRUM 24th Edition, 2010, a magazine produced by SMK Tengku Mahkota Muar.  Immediately I made up my mind to post this piece of writing on this blog since it would save me some effort in updating it.  The item, bearing the same title "I Still Remember" made up of almost 1800 words.  Although it only filled one page of the magazine, I think it is too long to be posted on this site which, for that reason, I decided to break it up into a few parts.  The one below is, of course, Part One.  Enjoy reading.)

            In the sixties, some schools used the Malay language as a medium of instruction while others used English.  National schools such as ‘Sekolah Kebangsaan Bakri Batu 5’ used the Malay language; which means at that school, every subject was taught in Malay except the English language.  On the other hand, at ‘Sekolah Ismail Dua’, every subject was taught in English apart from Bahasa Malaysia and ‘Agama Islam’.

This is not Sek. Keb. Bakri Batu 5 in the 60s, but there was a resemblance

Being the third child in the family, I had an elder sister and an elder brother, both of them studied at a ‘Sekolah Kebangsaan’ (Dad referred to it as a ‘Malay school’) half a mile away from our home.  They walked to and from school each day with a lot of their friends.  Since they learnt everything except the English Language in Malay, I used to hear my elder brother reading loudly at home.  I thought to myself, when the time came for me to go to school, I would also be like him, reciting printed words at the top of my voice.

I still remember that day when I was lying in my father’s lap (I was quite small at that time) one late afternoon.  My mother was at the kitchen preparing dinner for the family.  Though still very young, I was already able to talk and understand some dialogues around me.

            “Do you want to go to a Malay school or an English school?” Dad asked me.

            I didn’t understand what he meant.  Since English school was mentioned last, straight away I answered “English!” without thinking.

            Consequently, Dad registered me at an English school when I was seven.  He took me to Ismail School Two in town (now Sekolah Ismail Dua) on his Vespa scooter and left me at the mercy of the teachers.  The class teacher (after that I learnt her name was Mrs. Chong) brought me to a classroom, “Standard One Suloh” where about forty boys were sitting behind oversized desks.  Mrs. Chong made me sit on a chair.  I looked around the classroom and saw two of my cousins also sitting in the same room.  We waved at each other, relieved to find someone whom we knew.

            Then there was a loud rang.  It was recess time.  Mrs. Chong made us line up two by two.  “Small boys in front, big boys behind”, she barked.  When she was satisfied with the line, we marched towards the canteen. 

On the way to the canteen, we passed two blocks of classroom buildings.  When we got near the canteen, sweet aroma met my nostrils, making me hungry.  Probably other boys in the group also felt the same.  I saw a lot of big boys; Malays, Chinese and Indians busy buying food and drinks.  Looking around, I saw piles and piles of food on a long and high counter, as high as my chin.  There were fried bananas, curry puffs, “kuih bom”, fried noodles, rambutans and a lot of other foods which I could not remember.   Apart from fried noodles, the kuihs cost five cents per piece.  In case some of the readers do not understand “kuih bom”, it was a kind of cake made from banana mixed with flour and shaped into a small ball, as big as a boy’s fist.  Nowadays, this type of ‘kuih’ is only as big as a child’s fist; more or less thirty sen per piece. 

A school premis in the 60s. 

I approached a big pan on which a mountain of fried bananas were placed and took one.  Actually, one piece of banana was sliced at one end.  Then another sliced banana was attached to it, dipped in flour mixture and fried.  The price was five cents.  Dad gave me ten cents that morning.  After eating the warm, soft and sweet fried banana, I drank a plastic glass of cool sweet drink, also costing me five cents.

            When it was time to go home, once more we were made to line up two by two.  Outside the school gate, I saw Dad waiting for me on his scooter.  Ahh, soon I would be home!                                                                     

Tazkirah Selepas Solat

     Sekali peristiwa waktu sedang berwudhu' untuk solat zohor di sebuah surau di tengah-tengah sebuah bandar, saya mendengar suara seorang jemaah memberi tazkirah selepas solat kepada jemaah lain berkenaan pentingnya solat fardhu, kesempurnaan dalam melaksanakan solat dan lainnya.  Tazkirahnya sangat kuat dan jelasa kerana jemaah tersebut bercakap menggunakan mikrofon.  Sambil berwudhu' saya mengikuti tazkirah tersebut dengan khusyu'.

Gambar hiasan

     Selesai berwudhu' saya masuk ke dewan solat untuk bersolat jama' taqdim zohor dan 'asar.  Selain daripada saya, ada beberapa orang lain sedang bersolat.  Berdekatan dengan tempat imam kelihatan seorang anak muda sedang membaca kitab dengan kuat.  Suaranya memenuhi ruang solat kerana dia menggunakan mikrofon.  Beberapa orang jamaah sedang khusyu' mendengar tazkirahnya.  Inilah tazkirah yang saya dengar semasa sedang berwudhu' tadi.  Masih lagi berlangsung.

Pemuda sedanag memberi tazkirah.  Dekat dengan kamera, beberapa orang sedang solat.

     Saya cuba tumpukan perhatian saya terhadap solat yang sedang saya lakukan tetapi cukup sukar kerana bunyi suara pemuda tadi sangat kuat.  Seusai solat, saya merenung jejak bertubuh kurus itu sambil mengenang satu komentar yang diluahkan oleh Encik Hamim Abdul Rahim (bekas pegawai di Pejabat Pelajaran Daerah Muar) kepada saya selepas kami sembahyang subuh di sebuah masjid dekat Parit Yaani semasa dalam perjalanan ke Johor Bahru.  Ketika itu Imam sedang berwirid menggunakan mikrofon manakala beberapa orang musafir seperti kami sedang sembahyang subuh.  Kata Encik Hamim "... sepatutnya Imam tidak perlu menggunakan mikrofon untuk berwirid kerana mengganggu tumpuan orang yang sedang solat."  Bila difikirkan, betullah apa yang diperkatakannya.
     Berbalik kepada pengalaman saya tadi, pemuda kurus tadi mengingatkan para jamaah supaya menjaga kualiti solat, tentunya solat yang khusyu' mempunyai kualiti yang lebih tinggi daripada yang tidak.  Dalam usaha kita untuk menyebarkan syiar dan syariat Islam, tanpa disedari kita telah mengganggu orang yang sedang solat.  Apakah hukumnya?
     Merujuk kepada kata-kata Encik Hamim, mungkin pemuda kurus tadi boleh memberi tazkirah ba'da solat tanpa menggunakan mikrofon.  Lagipun orang yang mendengarkannya tak ramai...

Sepakbola, Indonesia, Malaysia

     Salam.  Waktu catatan ini ditulis, Malaysia telah memenangi perlawanan akhir bola sepak Sukan SEA mengatasi Indonesia melalui tendangan sepakan penalti, dan selepas itu kalah dengan Bahrain 2 - 3 selepas mendahului selesa 2 - 0.  Saya tidak berhajat untuk menceritakan hal tersebut, tetapi meluahkan rasa terkilan atas sikap penyokong pasukan Indonesia menjelang perlawanan akhir tersebut.
     Berdasarkan laporan akhbar Malaysia, kelihatan seolah-olah para penyokong pasukan sepakbola Indonesia sangat benci kepada bukan sahaja para pemain bolasepak Malaysia khasnya, bahkan juga dengan negara Malaysia amnya.  Fenomena ini bukanlah baru, bahkan telahpun bermula sejak kerajaan Indonesia melancarkan kempen 'Ganyang Malaysia' di zaman konfrontasi dahulu.  Selepas itu, dari semasa ke semasa timbul peristiwa-peristiwa yang melukakan hati rakyat Malaysia, walaupun ia bukan menggambarkan sikap kerajaan Indonesia.  Kenyataan bahawa ramai warga Malaysia mempunyai ikatan kekeluargaan di Indonesia dan sebaliknya, tidak melembutkan hati mereka yang anti Malaysia.  Bahkan ada ruangan di media Indonesia yang terang-terang menyemai kebencian terhadap Malaysia seperti Metro TV Indonesia.  Permulaan satu episod dimulakan oleh pengacaranya berbunyi demikian; "Ya, kembali dengan komentar republik newsdotcom dengan komentar... keadaan antara republik kita dengan Malaysia memang semakin memanas..."  (Adakah ini juga bukan menggambarkan sikap kerajaan Indonesia?)

Poster yang bertanda bulat merah berbunyi "MALAYSIA GO TO HELL".  Jahat sangatkah orang Malaysia hingga dihukum masuk neraka?  Lihatlah wajah-wajah penuh kebencian mereka.  Beginikah sikap saudara se Islam terhadap saudara mereka hanya kerana sebiji bola?

     Selain daripada membaca luahan rasa rakyat Malaysia melalui sms IMetro (saya tidak rajin membaca pelbagai akhbar), saya menelusuri laman-laman YouTube perlawanan bola sepak Malaysia Lawan Indonesia dan membaca komen-komen pelayar.  Ketara kepada saya begitu sekali bencinya para pelayar Indonesia yang memberi komentar, yang sesetengahnya berupa penghinaan terhadap Malaysia, seolah-olah Malaysia (Maling Asia, malingsial, antimalingsial2) ini sangat jahat, lebih jahat daripada Yahudi.
     Kata seorang kawan, "Dia kena tsunami kita tolong, dia kena gempa bumi kita sibuk tolong.  Berapa ramai rakyatnya yang cari makan kat tempat kita?  Siap ugut nak bunuh pelajar Malaysia yang ada di Indonesia.  Mungkin itu hanya gurauan.  Gurauan apakah ini?"  Wahai saudaraku di Indonesia, apakah saudara sentiasa yang lebih baik berbanding Malaysia?  Daripada anda membenci saudara seagama di Malaysia, bukankah lebih baik saudara membenci Yahudi?  Ingatlah bahawa ramai rakyat Indonesia yang mengaut berjuta-juta ringgit di Malaysia setiap bulan.  Ingatlah bahawa keselamatan saudara anda yang ada di Malaysia dijaga dengan baik oleh rakyat dan kerajaan Malaysia.  Walau pun ada segelintir rakyat Indonesia yang mati, mereka BUKAN dibunuh oleh rakyat Malaysia, tetapi oleh rakan-rakan Indonesia juga.   Ramai perompak yang ditangkap warga Indonesia.  Sedarlah diri sikit.  Tidak ada untungnya saudara membenci saudara-saudara serumpun.
     Kepada warga Malaysia yang suka layan komentar-komentar sampah dari seberang, hentikanlah.  Kalau orang gila anda layan, anda pun samalah macam orang itu.  Hentikan saja.